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Chickpea to Cook

A chickpea leaps almost over the rim of the pot where it’s being boiled.

“Why are you doing this to me?”

The cook knocks him down with the ladle.

“Don’t you try to jump out.
You think I’m torturing you.
I’m giving you flavor,
so you can mix with spices and rice
and be the lovely vitality of a human being.

Remember when you drank rain in the garden.
That was for this.”

Grace first. Sexual pleasure,
then a boiling new life begins,
and the Friend has something good to eat.

Eventually the chickpea
will say to the cook,
“Boil me some more.
Hit me with the skimming spoon.
I can’t do this by myself.

I’m like an elephant that dreams of gardens
back in Hindustan and doesn’t pay attention
to his driver. You’re my cook, my driver,
my way into existence. I love your cooking.”

The cook says,
“I was once like you,
fresh from the ground. Then I boiled in time,
and boiled in the body, two fierce boilings.

My animal soul grew powerful.
I controlled it with practices,
and boiled some more, and boiled
once beyond that,
and became your teacher.”

~Jalaluddin Rumi (translated by Coleman Barks)

Pluto’s glyph is the circle of spirit being cooked in the crucible.   It represents the descent into the underworld, going into the darkness, confrontation with the shadow and facing one’s deepest fears.  Darkness refers to what has been repressed or denied, and Pluto’s job is to call up the experiences that get us to look at these issues. Whether Pluto plays a prominent role in a natal chart or it is activating a personal planet/angle by transit, its strategy includes taking a person through something difficult they cannot prepare for or avoid.

Pluto Conjuncts the Moon

It is December 2002 and I’m sitting in front of astrologer Evelyn Roberts in her home on the central coast of California.  A few months ago, I discovered the world of archetypal and psychological astrology.  Evelyn’s been trained to interpret charts this way, and I want to experience the validity of it through my own chart.

As we move into discussing my current transits, Evelyn begins talking about the Pluto cycle I’m in.  The planet has been conjuncting my natal Moon in Sagittarius, and she tells me it is a time of significant transformation.  We discuss the various possibilities of how I’m experiencing its impact.  Health issues my mother (Moon) is having, a huge transformation my husband is undergoing (Moon as my 7th house/partnership ruler) and the unearthing of hidden inherited ancestral patterns (Moon in 12th house).

For months, I’ve been feeling the transit as a great restlessness stirring within the recesses of my soul.  Hours are spent in solitude, being in nature and communing with the land and animals in the isolated part of the world I’m living in.  My dream world is extremely active, richly filled with intense symbology and I keep a journal devotedly.  I dive into books on the soul;  James Hillman’s “The Soul’s Code: In Search of Character and Calling,” and Thomas Moore’s “Care of the Soul:  A Guide for Cultivating Depth and Sacredness in Everyday Life.” A part of me is longing for something I cannot touch or name.  By all outer appearances, I have a “perfect” life and yet, deep within, something is missing.

Literally, the year and 2/3rd cycle has shown up thus far as a major move with my husband from a home I lived in for 10 years and a city, spanning a big chunk of time since 1976.  Salt Lake City was the place I called home and yet, I felt completely clear it was time to leave everything.  The importance of deeply rooted relationships and a sense of security regarding my place in the community and my contribution to it, were values I was living my life by.  Still, an urgency to answer the call to a journey into the unknown, relentlessly tugged inside of me and I knew I had to go.

Continuing on with the transit investigation, Evelyn asks me how my marriage is going (again, Moon as 7th house ruler).  “Great! We’re getting along just fine,” my response immediate and enthusiastic. “You must have a very strong relationship,” she replies.  “Yes, we do,” I add, speaking with Sag Moon confidence.  She seems impressed that this is so, and I feel good about it too.  Together for 12 years so far, the longevity of our relationship is a done deal.  Of course we are growing old together.  Though referred to as “The Bickersons” from time to time, we are mostly viewed as an ideal couple and our affection for one another is apparent.  The “D” word has never crossed our lips.

But Pluto’s mandate requires that something will happen that you don’t know is going to happen before it happens. Four months after my reading with Evelyn, my husband tells me he thinks he wants a divorce.  There, in the kitchen of our California Ranch home, the ground cracks open and the Underworld Lord seizes control, taking me on an unimagined descent into identity dismantling. Death was imminent, transformation necessary and eventually, rebirth happens.

Over the next several months while we remain together questioning what action to take, I experience intense fears about my ability to survive without him.  I struggle with the thought of losing my strongly held attachment to the role of being a wife.  I want our marriage to work and yet, I feel the burden of responsibility is on me to make the necessary changes and I don’t know if I can.  Laughter leaves me, crying takes its place.  Counselors are seen, while my own work as a therapist becomes increasingly difficult for me to handle.

Plutonian issues are at the heart of what’s come between us.  They’ve been mostly swept under the rug, largely ignored ’til the one day, when the Underworld deity walks into the house bringing chaos and disruption, demanding to be dealt with, once and for all.

Pluto Strategy

One version of the Sumerian myth of Inanna, Queen of Heaven, says she descended from the upper realms into the Underworld, out of her own curiosity. Another says she went there out of obligation paying respects to her sister, Eriskegal, Ruler of the Underworld, whose husband had just died. As Inanna makes her descent, she is forced to relinquish her crown, jewelry, robes, etc…all that she holds dear to her and the way she identifies herself. Standing naked before Eriskegal, Inanna is met with a stone-cold stare, and all life leaves her. Eventually, she is rescued and brought back to life, into the upper world.

The Rape of Persephone by Gian Lorenzo Bernini

In the first version, Inanna’s descent is consciously made. Perhaps there is something potent she is seeking in this unknown place. In the second, Inanna also willingly goes, but this time she travels into this realm out of obligation. A third and later version from Greek mythology, tells the story of Persephone, a young maiden kidnapped one day while she is walking with her mother, Demeter, through a field of flowers. Unexpectedly, the ground opens up and Persephone is kidnapped by Pluto, Lord of the Underworld.

While there may be a part of our psyche that is curious about what is hidden in our unconscious, or some compelling drive urges us to go there, what is more often the case is our protective egos would rather continue operating from a place of safety and security. This is why Persephone’s version is more closely aligned with the initiatory experience of a transiting Pluto cycle. The message is the same for all three versions and ultimately it is a story about the cycle of death, transformation and rebirth.

Pluto takes us into an unknown zone, one of chaos defined as total disorder or confusion. Whatever ego structures one has in place before a Pluto cycle begins, the intent of the initiation is to dismantle that which is standing in the way of us claiming our power more fully. The end result of the cycle is increased self-power, but the strategy operates initially through an intense loss of it, and an acute perception of what is missing. The experience causes us to fully claim what is most important to us by the painfully felt awareness of its lack, and by circumstances beyond our control. As in the law of nature, Pluto represents what is organic and impersonal. Whatever is out of balance, Pluto’s job is to restore it, regardless of the crises and destruction it may bring. The deepest core of our being will be challenged in an area of life containing our most important issues.

Pluto losses can range from physical ones to historically held onto beliefs and ideals. These cycles require a person to feel their feelings by producing dramatic experiences beyond their control. During these times, the power of positive thinking and affirmations can feel like ridiculous new-age tripe. Watching an Abraham-Hicks video whose message is to “Get Happy” can easily illicit fantasies of throwing darts at Esther. Etherial Enya and all higher chakra, angelic music is replaced by a wailing Sarah McLachlan, angry Shawn Colvin or anything tribal and lower chakra infused.

How to Consciously Participate With Pluto

One of the ways to work with a Pluto cycle is to ask the question and make a list of “what is the worst that could happen?” Whether you are in a cycle currently, or about to enter one, making this list calls out the deepest fears, acknowledging and bringing them to light. Oftentimes, what happens is something that didn’t make the list, and thus, the paradox of these transits is that it is difficult to prepare for them.

Hercules and the Hydra by Antonio Pollaiuolo

In the first phase of a cycle, powerlessness is the dominant feeling. Depression may be present. Engaging the dark force or one’s demons requires serious courage. It’s important to ask, “What do you want of me?” The beast appears to be real, and like the story of Hercules and Hydra, each time we try to cut off the creature’s head, three more grow in their place.

Although it is helpful to dialogue with this force, we cannot address Pluto cycles with our minds, there is no logical way through this passage or out of it. It doesn’t mean that we can’t call on our Witness Self to realize that we are a Self, having this deep emotional experience. It just means that the only way to “kill the monster,” is to go into the watery realms and be willing to meet her there.  Shamanic Breathwork, Process Work, and Expressive Art Therapy are excellent ways to connect with the feelings that need to be honored.

It is only in the embracing of deep feeling – whether it is excruciating pain, loss, jealousy, betrayal, abandonment, loneliness and intense fear, that the unconscious material is being met, cared for and given what it needs. Thus, the possibility for transmuting that which is still running some part of us, keeping us from further integration and wholeness, is present, and we rise again from the ashes, powerful and strong.

Shift Happens

Sometime during my cycle, I make a major shift.  I realize that I am not solely responsible for the issues on the table and that there will be changes required for both of us, if we are to stay together.  I begin asking the question, “Do I want to stay in this marriage?  What is it that I truly desire? I explore what it is I need in our relationship and what I feel needs to be done to create a balance of power and control.  I recognize what I’ve repressed and what I long to experience in a partnership.

Another major move occurs, more counseling, further questioning.  Power struggles continue.  Two months after my cycle completes, I know what I must do.  I summon the courage and power to leave.  I don’t know how I will make it on my own without him, but I’m willing to take the risk and find out.  I’m willing to see who I am, separate from him, and experience the freedom to follow my heart, wherever it leads me.

Within another six months, an agreeable dissolution of our marriage contract is reached, and the courts declare us legally divorced.  On the morning of July 4th, 2004, I find out I have “officially” birthed myself into a new life.

© Holly Alexander at http://www.yourdivineblueprint, 2010. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Holly Alexander and http://www.yourdivineblueprint.com with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

References:

“Making the Gods Work For You.” Caroline Casey, 1998.

“The Shamanic Astrology Handbook: The Archetypes and Symbols of the Signs and Planets and Their Role in Shamanic Astrology.” Daniel Giamario with Carolyn Brent, 1994.

“The Gods of Change: Pain, Crisis and the Transits of Uranus, Neptune and Pluto.” Howard Sasportas, 1989.

Have you gone through a Pluto Moon Initiation?  I’d love to hear your comments about how this transit has played out for you!

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Today marks the first day of my next 52-day cycle in the yearly spread of the Mystic Science of the Cards system. Entering this Saturn-ruled cycle with an Ace of Spades as my primary card, I feel the significance of what this period will bring. The Ace of Spades is one of the most ancient symbols for death and transformation, as well as deep spiritual truth. It is the one card in the 52 card deck representing the hidden truth that lies behind the veil of illusion in our earthly experience. Its energy initiates us into penetrating the distinction between what we perceive as truth and what truth actually is.

The Ace of Spades is also the symbol for The Order of the Magi. Author Robert Lee Camp states, “With its origin over 20,000 years ago in the early days of Atlantis, The Order of the Magi is probably one of the oldest spiritual organizations that has ever existed. No one knows the exact origin of the group, but evidence shows that they have maintained and preserved some of our most valuable and important spiritual sciences. These are the Magi of ancient Egypt and before, those who study the laws of nature and our cosmos, those who know the secrets of our planet as no others do and those who are dedicated to the preservation and sharing of these ancient truths.”

A basic meaning of the Ace of Spades, is “secrets.” It became a symbol for the esoteric scientists, sages, astrologers and teachers responsible for preserving and disseminating a powerful system for self understanding. The Mystic Science of the Cards was kept within a secret order, the Mystic Brotherhood, until Grand Master Olney H. Richmond made the information public with “The Mystic Test Book or the Magic of the Cards” in 1893.

So, what can I expect to have happen in this Saturn cycle of mine? Secrets revealed? Seeing beyond the veil of illusion and the initiation into deeper spiritual truths? Most definitely, a transformation and death of some sort which will have a profound impact on me. Here in the Saturn period, part of me wonders if my father will pass on. With the current astrological transits of Saturn and Pluto to my natal Sun and Mars, it is a strong possibility. Or is it only my death and a change in my work and lifestyle, relative to my offerings of this mystic system? Since all Aces represent new beginnings perhaps this one, as a Spade, merely reflects my desire and effort put forth to bring this body of knowledge and wisdom to a greater number of people through my work.

My underlying 5 of Spades gives me additional clues. This card is a strong indicator of travel, moving my home or business, a change in health. At its most basic level, the 5 of Spades means a change in lifestyle or the things that one does day in and day out. Something will change that affects the way I live or the things I do each day. There will be a restlessness and a desire for change with this card. Perhaps a dissatisfaction with the way I’m experiencing life that motivates me to want something new.

The 5 of Spades is also my Moon card in my Jack of Hearts Life Spread. It carries a Sagittarian influence which interestingly, is also where my Moon is in my natal horoscope. Restlessness and change are my inner companions, reflected consistently in my outer world. They keep life exciting for me, and I welcome them.

I’m putting these cards of transformation and change on my Kuan Yin altar, thanking the Divine Mother for Her infinite compassion, wisdom and mercy.

I’m saying a prayer for having the grace to allow life to live me, open to all that comes and goes in this holographic experience.

I’m willing to keep my heart open, and feel the truth of love in all things.

© Holly Alexander at http://www.yourdivineblueprint, 2010. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Holly Alexander and http://www.yourdivineblueprint.com with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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Butterfly: Original Painting by Holly Alexander

Originally published September 26, 2008

This is my favorite day of the year.   I love celebrating my birthday and I always wake up infused with the magic and possibilities of creation, the wonders of birthing a new me.

This day, this season, is when I feel the energy of planting seeds.  What I begin will show me its harvest six months from now, around the time of the Spring Equinox.

As I reflect over the past year, and particularly over the last seven years relative to transiting Saturn as it aspects my natal Moon, I feel my completion on many levels.  I have felt the “cycles within cycles,” more palpable than I can ever remember feeling them before.  I attribute this to my deep dive into the realms of astrology and the Divine Beauty of Great Mystery…and with that, my activation of a more conscious participation with my relationship to It and Me.

This past year has felt like a grand culmination of my entire life, my first 47 years.  My mantra has been about letting go, releasing, endings, death.   While my natal Moon/Jupiter in Sag holds the space of optimism for me, my enthusiastic and expanding place of vision and possibilities, it has been challenging to manifest the new, fiery creative impulse bubbling up inside of me, not quite ready to come to a boil.  I’m excited to taste that full heat and I know it is arriving soon…very soon!

For now, the message has been about freedom (Uranus), about a reclamation of my Feminine Power (Venus Return) and about taking the elixir I have distilled (Pluto), out into a larger community (Jupiter/AC Cap and Venus Return/MC, Mercury).  I look forward to sharing my medicine with you!

© Holly Alexander at http://www.yourdivineblueprint, 2010. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Holly Alexander and http://www.yourdivineblueprint.com with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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Photo by Holly Alexander

Originally published on July 14, 2009

Lost

Stand still. The trees ahead and bushes beside you,
Are not lost. Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes. Listen. It answers,
I have made this place around you,
If you leave it you may come back again, saying Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost. Stand still. The forest knows
Where you are. You must let it find you.

—David Wagoner

It can be challenging to swim in the primordial waters of our psyche, in that place outside of time and space, the eternal NOW. Consensus reality (inner and outer Saturn) requires us to report for duty, have clarity about who we are and where we’re headed. It validates us for what we do know.

Many of us are confronting our fears about physical survival these days as transiting Pluto (inner and outer breakdown and transformation) in Capricorn is taking us on an underworld journey related to our personal and collective existing economic structures. Old ways of operating are no longer being supported.  And yet, there is much confusion about precisely what the new, alternative ideas and visions are for living in the world that will, and how to manifest them.

Transiting Neptune (dissolving boundaries and constructs of ego-identification and separation) continues to be on the cosmological world stage, joined by Jupiter and Chiron in Aquarius. One way to view this is as an exterior (Jupiter) and interior (Neptune) vision quest connected to seeking new information on how to fulfill our ultimate potential and finding the key which will open new doors of knowledge, wisdom, and opportunity (Chiron in its teaching aspect).

The Neptune part of us first requires a willingness to give up the old, close the doors and empty out the glass without knowing what the new will bring. Its initiation process invites us to be lost in the wilderness, wandering blindly in the dark, surrendering our attachments to current ego-identification and roles we have played.

Neptune is the antidote to the mind’s need to know. In that place of not knowing, and having faith we are being guided in the deepest recesses of our personal and collective psyche, we are giving ourselves an incredible opportunity to practice another level of spiritual mastery. Inevitably, we are led to a birth of a new identity and beginnings.

© Holly Alexander at http://www.yourdivineblueprint, 2010. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Holly Alexander and http://www.yourdivineblueprint.com with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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